Ready for a short story. Many of you followed me last summer (i miss my grapevine gals!) while I shed the last of my baby fat and trained for my first half marathon. I noticed that my last picture the I updated was on October 5th. My official Lifetime status was right after that and in December I did run the half marathon
After making Lifetime, I decided to do it on my own just using e-tools…no meetings. Well, that was a bad idea. By January I was a steady 135. Very comfortable, but also up quite a bit. I was noticing that I could eat pretty much anything and maintain 135. Well, then I stopped working out. OUCH
On May 7th I was back to 139. We all have a breaking point. Seeing that scale just a mere 3 pounds from where I started hurt….badly. As did my clothing…I bought all skinny clothes last summer….they aren’t fitting as well right now. Clothing I bought in December isn’t even fitting right… I was back to WW (ironically, 5 days shy of one year from my original join date).
How can this be??!?!? I asked? Easy. Stopped working out AND stopped counting points. I hate to think that I’ll live the rest of my life as a point counter, but….well I may be. I hate letting food go to waste so in my mind I MUST eat it. It could be the crust of my toddlers sandwich, the last sliver of cake on the platter, a handful of goldfish for the kid a handful for me…..and that, my friends, is how you gain back weight.
Today I wasn’t so motivated as I dragged my booty back in my new meeting. I knew that the scale would confirm that I had regain the two pounds I had already lost last month. I knew that I was not tracking. I KNEW!!!!
Sidenote–last year I was so annoyed at the people complaining that they didn’t lose weight or the WW didn’t work only to find out they weren’t tracking. Scientifically we are more likely to lose weight if we write down our food…not later in the evening, but the moment it enters our mouths. Now, in the last week, I realized I was one of those people. Frustrated by the systems yet not following it….does that make sense?!?!
Anyway, my new leader, asked me to write down everything this week to give to her….so now I’m not being only accountable to me, but to someone. Lord, if that is what it takes by all freaking means I will do it.
Other noteworthy things:
Why am I trying to lose weight? This is a funny, but good question. I often feel so out of place at WW b/c yes, I am skinny by todays standards. But, by my own and knowing me…I’m 125-128. Yeah, that seems like very little weight, and it is, but didn’t I mention in “about me” my obsession with eating?!?!? I have to watch it or I get in over my head. Hello, I have successfully lost and regained close to 12 lbs this year alone! My old WW leader said smaller people tend to have “hard lard” that is very difficult to shed. Ever hear the last 5 are the hardest?!?!
I’m trying to shed the very last of this weight for the upcoming ten year reunion. Unfortuately, most people saw me last pregnant. Not pretty. Also, there is the “next” baby. Which we would like to start trying for in August.
I know, I know, why lose it to gain it back. If I can control my urges before, I’ll better maintain myself (in theory) once I’m pregnant again. Well, that or being scared of gaining 60+ lbs again should do it.
Wow….now that was a lot of rambling and if you are still reading…thanks!
Now, I vow to write everything the goes in my mouth down again. And if yall want me to, I’ll start posting my daily food log like I did on the old site.
And, I promise to post some of my great recipes that I haven’t updated on here yet (ahem, it has been six months you know?!?). Hey, just b/c I wasn’t “on plan” doesn’t mean I wasn’t cooking health, have I told ou what my hubby does?? I have great meals….just portion them out right!
Oh, and welcome to the FUMC WW readers!
Oh, one more….I was so surprised to see how many people still check this site daily. I almost feel bad for not logging in in six months…..THANKS!