Fine, Fine, I’ll update it…

Hum, um, where to begin….

 

I have to say, I’m having a much harder time losing weight this time with WW.  Last year I was already in th every low 130’s, this year I’m still in the mid 130’s after two months. What’s the difference this time, dedication!

 

Last year I was really dedicated. If i didn’t know the points I didn’t eat it…even the chips and dips didn’t phase me. I guess you could say it was my “one degree” as discussed in todays meeting. I was on a mission.  This time, I think I’m mainly maintaining. I’m staying on plan to simple keep from overeating, to keep fitting in my skinn-er (not my full on skinny) jeans. I’m using the plan for maintence, which really sucks, because I could be doing that for free if I were a mere four pounds lighter! 

 

Causes of less motivation:

1) Trying to make a baby. Why am I trying to lose weight before conceiving….oh yeah, I don’t want to end up like THIS

2) Too many outings! Mothers Day, Memorial Day, Fathers Day, the Forth, Weddings, Showers…YUCK!

3) I’m not going to lie. I like the way I look. I’m okay that I’m slighty puffier around the edges than I am at goal. And honestly, I feel like I’m continuing to go and pay for WW to make myself feel better about what I am eating (does that make sense to anyone but me)

4) My pants fit again.

5) I WANT TO EAT! And I feel like since I am Lifetime that I know what to do. Wouldn’t you think if I knew what to do I’d do it.

 

I do like what someone said today and it served as a good reminder as to why I am there. She said, “If only I would have come back after 5 lbs…maybe it wouldn’t have turned into 25.”  I feel that. I’m happy I’m at the 5 lb mark…well not happy, but you know what I am saying.

Things coming up that will screw me up:

1) Girls night tomorrow at Posado—dang those chips they are such good conversation pieces!

2) Family trip to Monroe where my family owns the best PoBoy and Pie shop!

3) Labor Day

4) Cruise

 

Things that should motivate me:

1) Class Reunion (october)

2) Cruise (sept – MAYBE!)

3) ….dang that’s all i have

 

Other ramblings….I think I may change the name of my blog to “A skinny girls quest to stay thin”  I realize that by todays standards I’m skinny (even if not by my own standards). But it takes a lot of work to stay thin. and then in my meeting today I was thinking how most people would kill to be my size (hence I told L* I wasn’t going to talk for fear that I’d be beaten with a stick by the rest of the members) and it dawned on me my real reason for being there is to WATCH my weight….yes, lose maybe a few more, but mainly to stay the course…. see..now i am rambling away and my toddler woke up…. 

ENJOY!

(oh, and I’ll have a recipe up tonight!)

 

Oh- and several people have now ask that I post daily food logs. I’ve given it some thought and I think I may do it talk about accountibilty…